Its blank because i still have not accept this thing yet.


I feel like punching this keyboard right now, or anyone who is willing to be my punching bag.
I just can't do this anymore. Not when i'm OK and trying my best to handle my emotions to get me through the day and some people just easily stride in and make it the worst day ever.

Sampai bila ...
untuk apa ....

I am struggling.
The song from ungu - Andaiku tahu is repeatedly playing in my head right now.

You know whats bugging me nowadays?
I keep daydreaming, or dozing off?  I don't know how to describe it.
Especially when i'm driving and suddenly i missed a lane or a stop.
Kadang - kadang anak yang tegur
" mama , green means go!"
 Cause kat trafik light i'll be gazing at the street, most of the time i can't remember what i was thinking about.
Haven't told anyone about it though except writting it here.

Anti social.

So i deleted my social media account.
Its been a week.
And guess what? nobody cares or notice.
See, that is the problem about these social media accounts.
Everyday we wake up and the 1st thing we do? we check our phones for 'updates'.
Updates that , frankly speaking. Does nothing positive to our lives.

So how's it going being antisocial?
I think its good. I stopped looking at my phone cause i stopped wanting to scroll facebook or instagram. I still have twitter though lol.
I think i might as well uninstall that app one of these days.

I bought a book.
Yeah. I decided to go back to my favourite past time, reading and writting. Which i have abandoned due to ' lack of time '.

I am deppressed. I wanted to go and have it checked out, but there's this person advise not to first. That i should learn to control the feelings rather than get addicted to medicine.
I'm not sure i can handle the feelings sometimes.

Its empty.

How do you handle emptiness?How do you make it go away?
Right now the only way i can make it a little less painful is to cry. But i'm never a person who cries in front of people, its always on my own at night when the kids are asleep.

Road to recovery: Part 1

Kenangan di tempat yang suamiku selesa berada.

Post 89 days since election day on May 9th.
Also post 89 days since hubby's stroke attack.

Kenapa ya aku nak tulis blog ni, padahal waktu ni, hati ni tengah sangat terasa

Tips for travel without a tour guide

I have always prefer to travel without the usage of travel agents. It's a hassle, yes, but also enriching and saves my $$ a little. So, how to venture forth into other countries? Most people i know have no clue how AND  always are surprised or sceptical when i tell them to go travel minus the agencies.

"I don't know the language!How am i suppose to find my way around? I need a travel guide to translate"

"It's dangerous, travelling in small groups of two or three people"

"How am i suppose to go around without a ready available transport[ note here, car@van]. Public transport? I'd get lost!"

"It's too much work to do to travel alone....I'd rather pay and let someone else handle it."

These are some of the statements I've come across among my friends or read. Actually, it's not as hard as it looks like (OK, you DO have to do a lot of work before) but that's the beauty of it. You get to know more about the places you're going to visit, you'll find out how the local culture is, what's the weather like, their history.
I mean how many of us actually listen to those travel guide yapping away in the front of the bus about the places they took us to?

Don't know the language of the country you're headed to? No problem, learn a few basic words before your journey. Or even better, we live in a very techie era, use those dozens of apps available. One I'd recommend is Google translate. Just type the word you want to translate and it'll give a voice over of the translation. Brilliant! Or you can just go and do sign language with the locals. It will be funny! Best of all, you'll remember that particular moment talking with that friendly uncle trying to give you directions in Spanish; recto,recto derecho. I only understood it as straight straight right by his hands showing to go straight (we did get lost in Majorca, Spain btw, but no worries!) Or you would never forget how a French waiter tried to explain to you about soft drinks with gestures (Imagine a waiter acting out a soft drink being open and it's contents fizzing out, hilarious just watching him!). So don't worry, just go!

Is it dangerous? Everywhere in this world is dangerous if we don't practise caution. Just follow basic steps in making sure you are safe. Such as
- Don't go out at night walking in a deserted area!
- Take extra care of your belongings, your cash, passport, valuables in places known to be pickpocket areas
- I always divide my cash and put them separately in different places just to be safe.

There's a lot more tips on staying safe while travelling. Read it up before your journey. As for me, i can say I've been lucky to not have encountered any unpleasant scenarios. Although there was once in Budapest, me and my sister was walking towards a mall and the area was a bit deserted at that particular time(it was noon) and there was this man walking behind us. We felt like he was following us, so we switch to the other side of the road and thank god, he didn't follow (Dunno what his intentions were, but we followed our instincts).

True, you can get lost if you're going around without a ready available transport. I myself got lost a dozen time! (Make that in every trip I've ever been to despite being excellent in map reading!Haha) But once you realise you're lost, stop and ask for directions. The locals won't mind helping you out. Most of the time they are very helpful. I think everyone is very helpful when it comes to tourist who are lost (what would you do if some tourist come up to you and ask for directions? You'd help them out right?) So, don't be shy and just ask away. Besides, by taking the public transport, you'll get to see the locals in their everyday life (be it crammed in a Paris train during rush hour and accidentally left your mate behind because she couldn't fit in too or standing awkwardly in a bus in Rome with aunties and their groceries.

Here are some of the pictures from our old but goldie trip to Budapest.

So...are you ready to travel on your own?


Mothers day is just around the corner. If you don't know when it is..pssstt it's on 13th May. Stuck on

Between February to April. Lookout for Avengers: Infinity war!!

Let me start by dusting off my blog. Err .. my last post was in february this year! thank god this year lol. But my resolution of writting every week seems to go down the drain. Its already april, closing by to May.

Best dentist in damansara! DENTESSENCE DENTAL CLINIC

So yesterday on my offday i decided to get my teeth checked. I never liked going to the dentist. Its something that i take for granted. Most of people take for granted i think.
Like having your eyes checked, usually people won't go for an eye check up unless they already feel that they can't see or read the signboard anymore.
So like teeth, i feel my teeth are ok as long as i brush them everyday.
Boy was i wrong. Read on what the doctor had to say.

Beards brother BBQ

So last month, office sent me for a seminar on binocular vision.
Made me stayed indoor for 2 days straight so after the seminar finished i was desperately in need of a good relaxing stress reliever.
What better for stress relieving if not eating?


Photo from: Breakfast with audrey

Well Well ...

I just love her, Angelina Jolie. 

Seems like i've been missing from the blogging sphere haven't i? So many things happened in between my last post and now, so so many.
But lets not get that in the way. I'd like to tell a story about something close to my heart today.
Which is ..